The beach

Finlay and my wife and I went to the beach in Naruto on Sunday. Jodi’s birthday party-ish thing took place. Only she arrived about an hour later than she said she would show up. Some people already stared barbequing. Since we ate before came, we did not join the bbq part. Instead we played at the beach hard.

Finlay must have forgotten he played at a beach last year—he is only less than 2 years old. He seemed interested in sand and waves. We carried him into the sea. Finlay has a habit of drinking water out of a swimming pool. I hope he would decide to lose the habit when he found water could be salty.

Anyway, it was very nice to see friends again. I hadn’t seen them for a half year or so. Their kids grew. So did ours.

memory hazard

Oh I cannot write. I used to tell my hobby is writing stories. And that was. However a number of writing became less and less every year. I think I wrote only 1 or 2 stories last year. I suppose that I have not written any this year.

Just a while ago, I was trying to write something and sat in front of my computer. I waited and waited till an idea to write come up. Nothing occurred to me. Well I got a sort of idea to write about a guy who cannot write. And I found that I couldn’t even write about it either.

It seems okay to write a journal. I don’t know why. It probably I just ran out of what to write about. Or simply I realized that writing was phony deed to carry out. The last writing I can remember is about a boy who attends a funeral of somebody he doesn’t know at all. And he cannot distinguish if the dead is man or woman. I thought that was a funny story; however my wife found it boring. Owing to nothing much else happens in the story.

I have one thing I want to write in my mind. But I haven’t got courage to actually write. I know the story will be longer than anything I wrote. I know myself disgustingly very well. What put me off writing story the most is that I will not be able to get it through. I don’t want to be disappointed with myself for not writing through.

I know my writing is getting worse and worse day by day. I need to write to keep my writing skill. By the way, I became unable to memorize things. Not only unable to memorize but also it seems I forget words too.