Kinda warm day today.

I went to two places to work today. One is in Saitama prefecture and the other one is I usually work, in Tokyo. Do you know this that you will get tired easily when you move far? I’ve heard this a few years ago, and it made sense to me. I got tired when I went somewhere, even by car or train. Moving makes you tired some how. Anyway, I moved long distance today and even I did not work long today, I was so tired. I was already exhausted when I got to Harajuku where I usually work, and told my co-worker about it. She told me she was tired too from making cookie for Valentine’s Day for her boyfriend. So, we were both tired. Not only that the manager went back for his date. He said he was going to a hospital for his back ache. But it was obvious that was for the date. My co-worker said he should have lied better. Hahahahaha

Anyway, it was Valentine’s Day and nothing was happened, but work.

Ice cream is for all season

I would write something today, but I still didn’t write a one sentence yet, even one word. I was satisfied that I had an off today. This morning I just went to a bank and deposit then walked around the town. I went into a bare looking restaurant where only single men go. You will know no family goes there to have dinner or even lunch. Anyway that’s where I had lunch today. After that I sort of wandered around the town. I am about to quit the company soon, so I have to find a job. I checked most shops in the town. Many shops wanted help; I saw lots of notices about it.

I went into “Buskin Robbins” which is well known to us as an ice cream shop. I went to a Buskin Robbins one time in the U.S. I guess that had nice atmosphere, but today. The worker was so gloomy, he seemed the manager of the shop; but he looked tired. I wondered if I looked tired at my work as he was. Anyway I started walking around again with an ice cream in my hand. I should have noticed that last night it was snow and still it covers roads. I felt sort of cold.

To keep writing journals...

I woke up this morning around 6 and went sleep again. I didn’t have to be in hurry today; so, I let myself kept lying on a bed. I was thinking about a dream I had, but I couldn’t remember at all what I had. And then I started thinking about what I would write for the next. Keep writing journals are still hard for me. Because as long as I write on the web, I cannot ignore that somebody I don’t know will see it. I shouldn’t make them bored. But come to thing of that as everybody’s like are different, what they like will be different as well. I like fish but some people don’t. So then some people like reading my stupid writing, but some don’t.

Anyway, I had to wait twenty minutes for a train. I could get off work earlier today, and I was in neighbor prefecture for work today. I am very used to using trains in Tokyo. So, something made me think trains shouldn’t make us wait more than 3 minutes. I made a pause when I saw an electric bulletin board read the next train would be here in twenty minutes. I came near freezing to death. Wind was blowing to me and there was nothing to block the wind. I started reading a book, but I simply couldn’t I started walking around on the platform. It was silly to do. Anyway I jumped into a train twenty minutes later.

way too much

It seems I have to write about another “this” company thing.
I was gloomy, perfectly when I got to the café I work due to what happened yesterday. The manager was not there; it was his day off. On his day off, he never shows up or even calls. Yesterday he told me I should not touch money, and would tell the instruction to his old co-worker who works with us. I asked that co-worker what he told to his; he seemed that he didn’t hear anything from the manager. But this evening the manager called to that old co-worker and told him to get a 10,000 yen from me and put it into the casher. Such a pain. That co-worker told me to hand the money to him. I seriously doubted that he was saying that. We have some principle for working, one of them is like this “Create a work place where we can experience the best work and we can develop our thoughts through the work.” Good for birds. What is “the best work”? to force somebody to hand money to the company?

I made a phone call to the guy in charge of all of us. He said the manager is going way too far. He said I should not pay for it. I told him that the manager suspect me of the thief. He said he believes me, but I just can not believe anybody working for this company anymore. I told him I shall quit. And I shall quit.

It was short enough to be interesting.

Just now I finished reading this book “of mice and men”. The book was, how to say, a crazy book. I don’t know what motivated John Steinbeck to write it. The story is about two guys sticking together all the time. And at the last, one guy had to pull the trigger on the other guy’s head. Well it didn’t make sense to me why he did it. Someday I will have to read that book again. I do remember when where I bought that book. It was two years ago in Seattle at Elliot bay Book Company. My boss liked john Steinbeck and I gave him “East Eden” by Steinbeck and I bought “of mice of men” for me. Why I bought was just because I heard he was a good author and was thin as a newspaper, only 100 pages and all. But I could not read it; I could not understand the English he used, but now. I don’t remember why I picked up the book from my book shelf, from a thousand of books. But it was not the book that made regret about reading it. I am glad to have it.

The next book I will read will be “Memory of Geisha”. I bought it a month ago, and had read 20 pages. It’ll give me a good idea about writing should be.

No cry

Yesterday was the best day of the year, because I saw friends altogether at the same time. Even if I was soooo tired and sleepy and sick, I could have fun pretty much. I want to say thank to all of them, especially Vicky who came to visit from the U.S.A. But when I was about to go into Fumi’s house where people were gathered, I lost a word. I mean I could not speak even Japanese, still less English. Maybe it was from happiness and tiredness.

Anyway, I was really glad to see all of them. I thanks to God.

But today was the worst day of the year. Money was stolen, AGAIN. Last time when I found money was stolen, I reported it to my boss. Then the boss started making us checking money every two hours for a day. After that nobody stole any money. Everybody was pretty sure that my manager is stealing money all the time. Especially, after previous manager quitted and “the manager” took place of him, I really worried about that he would steal money and impose the crime on me.

To make the complicated story easier, he stole money, obviously today and he said I did. He came to the café this night, and I had been checking money every two hours. When he came he asked to me if I did check the money today. I replied yes, but he did not seem he heard what I said. He checked the drawer of the casher and took more than 200,000 yen (around 2,000 dollar) away from it, because there was lots of money more than we needed. And he took it to the safe. I should not have let him do. Actually I would do it myself, but he said he would do. That was my fault. Anyway when he came that was around 9 pm and I checked the money around 8 pm, and then it was no error. It would not happen that 100 bucks disappear for an hour, because there were only around 10 customers came after 9 pm. It means only 10 times, we opened the casher machine.

I called to my manager and told about it. I knew he did, but what he insisted on was like I stole again. Of course I didn’t and I said I didn’t. Then he said “Anyway it was your fault, you have to make amends for it.” WHAT? What is “Anyway”? and why it was my fault? What is his opinion is, that I left lots of money in the drawer and made a circumstance that everybody could steal money. Now he was saying I ought to suspect all co-workers of a stealer. He kept saying that I have to pay for it. I said I would not touch that stupid money anymore, because every single time, when he came, money was stolen. I did not say he stole every time, though. He said I am useless I should quit. I said okay. I came close to spilling “thank you”. But it was no fun at all to be called stealer. Probably, after I leave, the manager would say I stole all the money which were stolen. He says wherever I went, money was stolen. But I have to remark, it was truth, wherever I went and money was stolen, but he was also there.

Any co-worker knows that he was eating company’s stuffs without paying all the time. He seems he has the authority to do, due to that he was the guy who was ordered by the president to structure this company.

On the way back to my house I felt like crying, but I didn’t. I won’t cry till I don’t have to. But it was true that I wondered why I have to work this company for. Everybody says I should quit and my friend will quit soon. I sort of had a obligation to the company about hiring me last year. But I decided I would quit as soon as possible for my life. There is no reason any more to waste my life in that sad company.

Maybe, a few years later, when I re-read this journal, I can laugh it away. I won't cry untill I do not have to.