Flu back.

It is windy. I am sitting on my chair and writing my journal and wondering if I should watch a movie. I feel my flu did not get cured yet. I thought I got over entirely, though. I should have gone to a bank in neighbor prefecture to get my money back. I guess I wrote about it before. It took me an hour for one way. I had to read a book one the way to and from. Besides those bankers took long time to make sure whether I am Takashi or not. It was so funny. I am actually Takashi obviously with my ID card and insurance card and some kind of papers. But they did not trust me, not only me; they technically do not trust anybody when they are likely to be taken money by anybody. I bet they will doubt pretty much too if our prime minister, Mr. Koizumi, suddenly shows up there and ask same as I did. But it is their, banker’s, business. We can not say anything about it. But it annoys very much, as you know. So after a million hours I got my money and they charged me some for keeping the dough.

Anyway one they way back, I felt I got flue back too as well as money. But I did not see any seat to sit. I started looking out side of the moving train. Many people think they have to use commuting time effectively, for reading a book, listening an English tape, and sleeping. But there should be many things that may attract you outside. For instance, I saw a shrine on the rooftop. I wondered who would go to pray there. Another thing I saw a big Christmas cake made out of plastic was on a building for years. I did not figure yet why one put that. In Tokyo you will see many strange things anywhere when you want to see.

So if I am going to watch a movie what I should? I wanted to watch Hurry Potter at a movie theater. But I don’t feel good, so decided to stay home instead.

What I have to do.
1. study
2. Probably watch movie.
3. Sleep well.

Life is like a...

Do you know anything about what is going to happen before you actually start something? As for me, “no” is the answer, the only answer. When I had started Kyudo, Japanese archery, I could not imagine I would have been into too much. Personally I think I soon get tired of things. Till I started Kydo I thought I was like that. But When I started it I found myself pretty much crushed into it. No matter what opinion people had about it? I practiced a lot without thinking I was doing Kyudo too much. Come to think about it I practiced a lot. I can not remember what I did when I was in high school anything accept Kyudo.

But to the contrary, I can not concentrate much, even as much as I should, when I do something I can not be into. Like this work, that I do now; I thought I would be my vocation or something. But when I opened a box, named future, it was not inside. I thought it, that here means my current job, was inside; but not. You know what I mean? Like when my mother presents me with a carton of soap, for no reason, instead of a DVD “Jack ass 2” which I expected my mother to gave me. I would be disappointed with the box of cleanliness. Of course, soap is important for me to keep away from germ. But on the spot, I would not need it. I might need “Jack ass 2” to spend the Christmas night with horrible laugh.

But when I opened the carton, another great story possibly would happen. And If I got the DVD, it could be stinking boring. I do not know what would happen. And I got “Jack ass 2” as I hoped and expected, and it is lousy already. Besides I know when a movie starts turn to be lousy, it would not recover.

Waiting for a train.

Finally I got home around 2am. I had been stuck at Ikebukuro station which is 4 or 5 stations far from Shinjuku for 1 hour. My bicycle was at Harajuku and the line takes me home was sure called it a day. Anyway I did not expect that I would be that late. I knew I would not get my room before it turned to be 18th.

Why I had got stuck at that station was due to an accident. As is often the case with any night, there are millions of drunken people anywhere, wherever you open your eyes. And as a matter of course, last night, I should say “last night” because the dawn is breaking now!! , there was one drunk guy stepped out from a platform. If one is dead or alive it takes every time looooooong time for train to run again. A station attendant kept saying they were rescuing the guy. But anybody else except children were was thinking they were collecting the guy. Besides, no child was supposed to be there, of course. That was late in the midnight. Anyway, people were whispering about that the guy would have been dead. I do not know. But it was sure I did not feel like getting on that train which ran over the guy. Do you want?

Anyway, after one hour later, after I started waiting for a train. The train wheeled into our platform. There were thousands of people waited for the train for long. It’s not kidding there must be thousand. Everybody wanted to get on the train. Another train would arrive in before long, in 5 minutes, should be. But everyday wanted to take “that train” I thought about I would be pressed as canned food like sardine and all. I didn’t want to be. I decided to take next train. I watched them pushing themselves into the train. There was no law or anything, were just pushing people. If you were there you would have thought that was nasty and ugly looking. I was glad as I watched that I did not try to smash myself into it. If I did I could do it, but I would be a nasty guy. And I had to bring that regret into the bed. I don’t use bed, so I meant the desk.

I got to Harajuku station. At the entrance of the station I saw a guy complaining to a station attendant. The guy was asking who stopped train. Obviously he was drunk and lost his point. I guess he was supposed to transfer to another line, but the line was closed when the accident line started. So he had nowhere to go and could not help but ask about who stopped the train. It would not help his circumstance a bit, but he could not help it. I felt sorry for the guy and the station attendant and the guy who fell off the platform and got some accident. Come to think of it, at least I was lucky that I could get home. I have to thank.

However, one problem is, that I am supposed to go to same place and fear for anther train accident that will probably make me stop.

Hey, you know I cannot sleep, because of the caffeine from coke or just could not sleep. I want to write about what happened today at my work. Actually I worked different place today, so this is why I had to take train. Anyway, I went there and worked. There is a new manager struggle to be settled down to his new position, a manager. After all the other workers went home, he started grumbling about stuff’s behave. In his opinion workers are not motivated enough. And it was true those workers were really reluctant to work. For one thing, those workers have been working so long and lost their zeal about work. Another thing that café is practically leisure. As most people know too much free time makes human beings lazy. Moreover, one worker told she wanted to quit even right away. But for make money she won’t. My friend the manager knew that he would have to do something for them. He said he was going to be stern to them, and made up his mind if those workers would leave from him. I think being stern is necessary now for him, otherwise the café would turn for the worse.

It is 18th 3:30am now. I should shut my PC down and go to sleep.

I found you!!

I did not post for a while again. I have to date back to two days ago. It was supposed to be my day off; and previous night I worked till 1am. I got home around 1:30, the day of my day off. I was about to go to bed soon, then my manager phoned me and all of a sudden. I felt something odd, because it was too late to call anybody. I figured that something unpleasant thing would happen. It happened all right. He said his brother was ill and wanted me to work the day. Okay that is understandable. But the thing was I had to go to work in 5 hours. I would go to see the movie Hurry Potter that day. But of course I could not. I worked 16 hours all most straight. And next day I worked 13 hours with 1 minute break.

Finally I got an off today and all day, I was sleeping.

Anyway, I slept a lot today. But I had some stuffs to do too. I got up around 10am and decided to make a phone call to a bank. Yesterday my landlord told me that I have not paid the bill yet. But I did it, and I was pretty sure. I tried to figure out where the money was. I was not sure where I transferred the money to his account. Finally I remembered where. I did it in another prefecture. One of our café is located there, and I paid the bill with ATM which was near the café. I told the bank about it; they looked into it and told me that I transferred my money into the wrong place, and the money is sitting the bank. So, I have to go to the bank, neighbor prefecture to get the money. It will take me a few hours to get there… But at least I was glad to find it. I know what I will do on next day off…going to the bank.

Anyway I paid for the bill today, using my savings. My wallet is now too light.

A desk can be a bed

Last night, when I was back from work, I lost my memory. I can not remember what I did. When I woke up I was still on my chair, around 6am. And I went to sleep again. Well I am tired. I realized that 2005 is almost over and I did not do any good stuff the late of this year. Hrm…it is not too late yet!!

Come to think of it.

I told my manager that I want to quit this job. It was the second time, last time they told me to reconsider about it. I did it and my conclusion is to follow my original plan. It here means to quit the job. I told my manager again about it. As I expected, he tried to persuade me not to quit. I insisted on I can not seem get interested in this job much. After a brief moment he started telling me the company’s plan. Our company will make new stores. One will be in the other place of Tokyo and the other one will be in Seattle. My manger asked who would go to Seattle to teach workers how to run and make drinks and all. He hinted at that I would be picked out for it. It sounded good, but come to think of it. It could not be happened. Because, the company will build new stores in next March. The guy who would go to American would not be me. In the first place, we have one guy who is now manager and he had been in the US since high school. In the second place, my English is not good enough as you reader can tell. This, that my manager told me made me feel uncomfortable. He just wants me to stick to this company. And for that, just he was telling me a something unsure. If I were a stupid pity dog which is in a dog race and chases inaccessible bait. Do I have to chase the bait running away as I try to catch up?

Birds

Today was my day off. I technically get off once a week, but in these days I had not felt I was getting off. When I got an off I got something that even I can not remember, should be they were not important at all. But today, I slept really well, until 10am; because I got off work around 1am… The job is wearing me away!!

So, I was sitting around till 2pm and went out for taking a walk around. Usually when I go somewhere, I use my bike but today.

It was really nice to walk. I could see something I don’t see when I bike. There were lots of ginkgo’s leaves on a road. Even somewhere I could not see a pavement because of ginkgo leaves. It was really beautiful to watch. I did not happen to bring my camera. So I have to use my phone camera to take pictures. I want to put the picture on this blog, but I don’t know.

After I walked for around 2 hours, on the way back, stopped on a small bridge. I just wanted to stop to see a river. There were two ducks hanging around. They seemed they were hanging around, but they might were finding their bait. I love ducks but I have lots of ducks picture in my computer, so I went to opposite side to see what was going on there. I found a heron there. He/she was tiptoeing not to let fish notice himself/herself. It was quite interesting. The scene rivets me to the heron. I was amazed because then I knew when I was working, the heron was hunting his/her feed. It sounds maybe dumb, but come to thing of it, it is great thing. There are lots of things which I don’t know in the world. Of course everybody knows it but not too many people have seen scene. I was watching him/her till he/she got food. It stuck me there for 10 minutes to see it. When it was time to go back, I wondered how the ducks were doing. I rushed to the other side, and saw they were still right where they had been. The only different thing was they were sticking their head into the river to find fish or something. They seemed as though they were stand on their hands. Funny ducks. Anyway, those birds were spending a whole day to live. It is nice to know what nature is.

After I got my room I started cleaning. It is also nature thing. I don’t want to stay messy place.